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no. 3 manual of death
Sometimes he remembered having heard tell how, in warfare, the soldiers in the trenches, reduced to inactivity by enemy fire, went to great lengths to find some occupation, so as to be able the more easily to bear the danger. And all men seemed to him like those soldiers, seeking to escape life - some through ambition, others through gambling, some by making laws, chasing women or through distractions such as horse-racing, politics, hunting, wine or affairs of state. [...]
Provided I can avoid seeing this dreadful life!

Leo Tolstoy, War and Peace